Being a first time mothers is like having a test every single day and not had studied the day before, seriously! I asked my self am I a kangaroo and haven’t noticed? the other day. Here is why, my almost 8 month baby girl has a terrible separation anxiety that I have to carry her or me right next to her 24/7. A kangaroo carries her baby in her pouch 24/7 and that’s when I though maybe I am a jumping Kangaroo and I haven’t noticed.
My baby weights 20 pound and carrying her all the time is also giving me terrible back aches no matter if I have a good posture or if I carry her on the sling. She doesn’t like be carried by any body else sometimes including her dad. Which for her Dad is perfect if you know what I mean. She cries her head of if someone takes her away from me and as soon as I have er back she shuts as a door behind you aaagggh. If I go to the bathroom I have to do it in a flash literally.
Sometimes I feel like running out the door and screaming but of course everything just in my head because this mother has things to do. I love my daughter with all my heart but at time she is a little hard on me and makes me want to cry. I learn something new every single day and seeing her grow so fast makes me happy and sad at the same time. While am sure that right now am crying out of desperation later I will be crying because my baby would no longer be a baby. In a matter of fact I am crying right now just thinking about it.
I don’t care if I am a Kangaroo and probably produce a hunch back I love you Luna from the bottom of my heart to the moon and back.